I've been hesitant lately in several ways that I'm usually not. I mentioned last week that I'm back to running! It has been so exciting, and I've gotten in 4 runs since then. Eventually I know I'll be back to running 5, 7, and 9+ mile runs, but for now I'm stuck doing 20-30 minute runs for at least another week or two.
Cardiovascularly speaking (Mac spell check says I made that word up) I feel great when I'm running. I ran 2.5 miles on the treadmill yesterday at 1% incline averaging 9:44/mile without stopping. I know I'm not qualifying for Olympic Trials with that, but after not running for three months I'm glad all the other work I did was keeping me in some sort of shape.
So what am I hesitating about? My foot (shocker). I'm still hesitant about running. I'm feeling GREAT except for little twinges and tingles in my foot and ankle every once in a while when I'm running or standing. I wouldn't call it pain or even try to rate it on a 1-10 scale, because it's just something I feel. But still, I analyze it. I feel it and then I focus on nothing but that for the next few minutes. And it makes me worry that I'm going to reinjure myself. The doctor said that running was fine at this point, yadda yadda, but I guess my overanalytical self still worries.
I wish I knew what specifically had caused the stress fracture in the first place. Then I could not do that or change that. But I don't get to know, so I just have to be overly cautious until then. And I guess I just write this all out to vent. When coming back from an injury do you do this too? When does it stop? Or when did you tell yourself that you're fine and just keep building mileage? Have you had a stress fracture? Do you still feel something even when you start running again?
For now, I'm just listening to my body...if that "something" that I'm feeling is disconcerting, I stop. I've cut one run short. I'm running slower than I even feel capable of at the time. Sometimes I have to openly acknowledge to myself that I could be running faster and that I'm using my brain and trying to be smart. It's really hard. I like running fast when I feel like I can.
In other news, tomorrow is Independence Day! I'm excited because that means I get to fit in another long workout! I'm headed out for 42 miles and can't wait to hit that distance again! I've been taking it a touch easier today and yesterday to be sure I can fit in more longer workouts later in the week and so I don't crash and burn. What are your plans!? Last year I made a fun July 4th themed trifle, and I'm trying to decide what to make this year to celebrate the holiday. Maybe this?
Are you making any treats? Care to share the idea?